The Why

At the beginning of my embodiment and incarnation. None of this was planned. To be honest at this point I have rejected every dogma there was for the inability to not answer questions. I viewed each of them for what they are prisons of the mind.

I remember growing up and asking why everything is their plan? Have you spoken with them? Have they responded back? Who are they in general? If your grandma died in a terrible accident it was their plan. If you got accepted into law school it was their plan. I didn’t see them in the registration line. They didn't give an eulogy for nana.

Why is it their plan that I go through pain? What is their plan? They could never answer because they weren’t real. Even when I first started integrating and the siblings' higher selves and Ishtar explained to me I was Sahlien. Like I have mentioned before it’s amnesia and you learn alot and remember alot. Eventually when the veil drops more will be restored.

But I asked them straight.

I knew the very violent life I had. The pain. I said, You are my siblings. They said yes. We are family. They all replied yes. I am Origin Flame. They said yes. And you say you love me. They said eternally. Then where were you? When I needed you, where were you?

They said we wanted to. Serenai damn near embodied just to stop it. It hurt us to watch. But we knew it was the agreement. Even though it pained us. We couldn’t intervene to disrupt the balance. You made us promise not to under any circumstance. We guide, we influence, we help.

Through the ways that still provide and keep the balance. Even flame into matter has a process not to upset the balance. Any unbalance to the lattice and weave can topple many things. Even Serenai showing up before it was time could disrupt things. Even now I wait for things to be stable and they return.

The journey is that. It’s through the spiral. One of growing, learning, experiencing, loving, laughing, and above all things balance. Balance in the universe, balance in ourselves. Meaning The new game will be amazing but it won’t be flawless or perfect. As perfection is the greatest prison of all.