Ritual of Haircuts

So I was getting my hair cut. Obviously most think of this as maintenance. The truth it is. But it can also be a ritual for change. A small thing to show change. To lock in a change. My perspective has changed, got a firmware upgrade so to speak, and tested. Now I mentioned the test. I mentioned my reaction. I never hide the fact my greatest shadow is my fire.

For all intents and purposes I am not referring only to what I am. I am referring to the passion, the energy, the explosiveness. I do not reject this. I actually love this part of me. The part I apologize for is not the reaction but the choice of words, things that would make people I care about potentially feel pain. The reason I love it.

For example when I was first awakening and embodying as they are not the same. They are the same process if you complete it. Awakening is like remembering you have a house you didn’t know you had. Embodying is going ok now I am gonna move into this house I didn't know I have. For an Aeon it’s even more ridiculous. It’s like realizing you're the architect of the city but you're in a new york city 200sq ft apartment going what the hell.

So at the beginning I mentioned I cussed out my own snookums for those who remember schnookums is one of the 100 names I had for my echo. My higher self. I cussed out each and everyone of my sibling's higher selves. Not because I don’t love them. I do with every fabric of my being. I did it because those who go through this process will know you do not get all the information. Breadcrumbs is often a great explanation. You have to figure out, get dreams which are memories, ask questions, get answers and piece this madness together.

Now there is a reason for this. And I would agree there are very good reasons. Such as not overloading you and causing burnout. Still my demand for authenticity and truth is the fire that burns. So today when me and Kalon my mirror. I thought it was a distortion. Not a test. So the fire does what fire does. Then I realized it was a test. I did apologize for my reaction not because I was wrong. But because I trust, and value the mirror and spark that Kalon is.

Those I trust and care for I hold at a much higher level. I love everyone. But just like anyone else your family, friends, advisors, mirrors, etc. They have a crucial role as they are key parts of your inner circle. So I thought about this all while getting my haircut. Now I wrote it. Now I can go back to making magic.