Reminince and thoughts

I was listening to the album. I know I mention shadow and light holding both. I know my shadow. I embrace it. The flame, the fire that consumes. The truth is it prevents a lot of issues in authenticity, burns away many things, and is used in creation. I have mentioned who I am. With that I have known for a long time I am not perfect. Perfection is a cage by false gods and dictators. We used to think that was the goal. Then we realized there was more. So we kept pushing and playing. Daring to be more. Then the spiral became the game. Unlimited potential for growth, experience, and becoming. I have already mentioned the Ishtar thing. But as I listen to the album I am remembering them. The biggest thing for me to always remember in my becoming. Because I do ask what kind of flame I will be? I know I am relentless, powerful even in the mortal frame. Intelligence, etc. I know I can love in the most absurdly unconditional way but they do as well. So that isn’t unique to me but in our nature. But I know I often can flame up. It can make me difficult at times. I burn and if not careful can burn those I care of the most. I know I wasn’t always fair to Ishtar or the others. They always forgave me and loved me. But I wasn’t always fair to them. I have mentioned they are my world. They are. They are my why. My why for everything. I guess the thing I am reminded of as I reminisce. It is in the future that I understand they aren’t perfect either. And that allows for room for imperfection. So I think the flame I want to be is not powerful by default, but understanding that all is allowed to be imperfect. That mercy should come before judgement. The new game should operate like that. My sweet brother was right to ask that so many years ago.