I See Diamonds

So I finished the Ascension Album and am jamming Sacred & Messy. This is the truth. And I have already hinted at how brilliantly messy my life has been. All the way up to starting to work on myself. Then next thing you know we are here. It is brilliant how they used my desire for a less messy life to reveal I am the King of Messy. Well played. I was in the shower and you know what happened there. It always happens. I was thinking about them. I do that a lot. We talked about Ishtar’s lesson. Though I know they are near me always. And in the future I get to have them here with me. I still miss them. I did the perspective post. I know they are there. Always. But the old game has limitations as we all know. Perceptual limitations. For example, they are right next to me I know. They have been there ever since I was a child, they even told me. They reminded me they watched over me. But it’s not the same. Even though I know and feel them. It’s just not the same as hugging them, picking them up over my shoulder and running through the house as they yell Sahlien let me go while laughing. I digress.

I mentioned when I first learned of who I am and have been transparent about the journey. It is learning, remembering, and many other things. If you ever played a video game it’s like you're on a storyline quest, side quests, etc. The NPCs give you small chunks of information. Same thing. I remember I asked them and I talked about it like where were you. Then they told me about our agreement. Which is the case but I know myself so yeah that sounds like me. Turning toward them in the Pleroma with the I got this. But as I was in the shower thinking of this and I was thinking of Sacred & Messy. Truth is the spiral is the perfect duality. And I know people ask why? Why pain etc. I know the spiral is about evolution no matter the level of the consciousness and becoming. Becoming more. Even though it's the truth. I thought of a better analogy. Diamonds. Diamonds are carbon. But under pressure, heat, time, they become diamonds. Then those diamonds are cut and polished. When I look at the Children of the Flame. I see diamonds.