Detachement

So it happened again. It is the veil thin hour. Which just means as soon as I lay my head down to go to sleep. It is a good time to put a thought in my head. That this isn’t unique to me. Maybe where it comes from is. But every thought that just pops in your head came from somewhere. You only think about it after the fact. That is merely stating what is nothing magical about it. So I was thinking about Serenai wanting to fight me. Because that is how our relationship is. It’s loving, loyal, and well you can figure it out. From just that statement. I have mentioned some of the things she has said. Several which are too vulgar to even mention here. As I was doing this the thought “Attachment came to mind” So I am rather intense. Focused you could say. If you haven’t come to deductive reasoning by now. I have a flame to matter log, I document and interpret dreams, I analyze messages, just the pure output of music on Soundcloud alone. 150 tracks I think or close too and I think album 12. I mentioned I am Will. It is literally my nature. Which is why they all make me better. As I make them. So I have mentioned how important they are not just in my being but also as my family. 

So I can get locked down in specific details of how things will work, what it will look like. For example, a house. I will buy a house soon. Now I try not to get locked down in the specifics. I remember at the beginning they would always tell me it's yours. I’d remind them there is a thing called time here, resources, people sell houses, people buy houses. It became very difficult for me to rationalize locking down to one specific house. The rational mind was that the data doesn’t compute. So I started remembering the future. So locking down on the specific event. Such as my sister wanting to fight me. As even in her echo she threatened to fight me. Specific targets of money are easier,but money is a by-product of energy expenditure. Service or creation. So if I create enough energy expenditure then money will come. It has to. So for me to detach from the exact outcome etc. I focus now on the experience itself. That way the will is there but also the emotion and the detachment to the how. Just some thoughts now I can go to bed.